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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 01:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was very sick at this time too.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Especially a lifetime of it.

What is the dirtiest thing you have allowed your husband to do?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We all went to grammer schools

Was to survive, this bastard.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why is the covert narcissist actively avoiding me when they see me everyday?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She loved him until the end.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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I will be 64.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Why do so many people like life?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

How can I move on from my ex?

Would this be the day?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I don,t even have a pension.

Do empaths fall easier for abusive people?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Put me off passion for life!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I have no regrets .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I could never make a relationship work though!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

One cannot live in the past .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Comes on , in middle age.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My family never makes their pension either.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

All the time i was locked up.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I think the readers, may guess!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im still living with it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was 9 years of age.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Ive learnt so much.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was scared of men, in general

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My life is so biszare .

This is soul school!.

Who then, do I blame.?

She wouldn,t have been !

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He knew the spot.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

So, i spoilt her more .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

So whats the point in blame.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But, we were locked up after school.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

What did i know ?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She found it foreign!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I said to her

She was in good health!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But it wasn’t much.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I waited trembling.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I couldn’t, believe it.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

When she asked me how she looked .

I was seconnd youngest,

And i lived it daily.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She married twice! .

It was going to be , some day.

I write beautiful poetry .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We were not on the streets..